===[l0NEly]===

2005-12-08T01:35:00.002+08:00

now at changi airport..lols..stupid plane deplayed frm 2.30am to 4.00am..ccb sia..make mi so freaking pissed off for habing to w8 so long jus for a stupid goddamned flight..miss her alotx..haix..sianx 1/2..no1 pei mi tok sia..se bei sian siaz..haix..cya guys and gers soon..gna miss u lots..ccb..fucking plane..knn..pubor..

cya in 11 days time!!!

2005-12-08T01:35:00.001+08:00

2005-12-08T01:35:00.000+08:00

2005-11-19T18:28:00.000+08:00

nthg much to sae.

i open my eyes
i try to see but im blind
i cant rmb how
i cant rmb y im lying here tonite
i cant stand the pain
and i cant make it go awae
im fading
im sick of this life
i jus wna scream how cld dis happen to mi
im slipping off the edge
im hanging by a thread
i wna start dis over again
i cant xplain wad happen
and i cant face the tings i've done
no i cant

----Untitled, Simple Plan

this songs rocks man
pretty forlorn lately
oh well
fate
destiny

oh fuck it

fuck it

2005-06-01T21:09:00.000+08:00

2005 June Camp
wootx...
confirm 100% gurantee chop kena lyk crazy...
(and of cuz gona miss her lyk crazy toox)

sianz...
yawnz...
nthg to do...
missing her a lotx...
hp kena confiscated...
drat...
haix...
2dae ish de BEST day of moi life...
haix...
so tired...
back pain...
head spnning...
things so blurry...
haix...

going to slp...

[[i.lubb.you]]

[[miss.you]]

2005-05-25T20:43:00.000+08:00

long time since i blogged...

lols...exams over..results out...okie not to hao lian okiex???erhemx...i got 7th fer class positon...c??? so humble..heheh...going to 2 mths lerhx...wootx...so fast....so happie!!!lubbing her mur and mur and mur and mur and mur and mur each dae....muacks muacks muacks....heheh...

Champions League Final
AC Milan versus Liverpool
Istanbul, Turkey

die oso must watch...haix...so difficult to decide hu will win...lols...
Milan got ageing defence but got world class midfielders and SHEVCHENKO!!!
Liverpool fucking solid defence but not sharp striking...

so my guess???

1-0 to Milan...
YEAHX!!!

2005-05-11T21:13:00.000+08:00

long time since i last blogged...beset by troubles and exams bahx...wth...dis blog lyk no one see...considering deleting bahx...mabbe im to boringg...lols...supposed to stardie physics...well mabbe ltr...burt i seriously no hope...no matter how hard i tried...i tried so hard and got so far...but in the end it doesnt even matter...lols...haix...

the day u lub mi
was the day i found hope
the day u held my hand
was the day u brought me to life
the day u said i lub u
i saw light in my dark world

all i want now ish nthg much
all i want now ish not to lose u
all i want now ish to see u happy alwaes
all i want ish nthg much
all i want ish jus ur love
forever

i wrote ur name on the sand
but it was washed away
i wrote ur name on a paper
but it flew away
i wrote ur name deep in my heart
and i noe
there it will stay

i may not be the perfect guy for u
but all i wna do for u
ish to give u love, care, concern
that u nvr felt
and pull thru thick and thin wib u
to hold u tight
and nvr letting go

if my time ends
i wun mind
cuz i died loving u
and knowing u love mi too

jux whispering the three magical words
u brought mi bliss
u are everything to mi
everything in my life
trust mi and hold my hand
for i will be there with u always
and i promise u
i will nvr let u go

i love you

2005-04-24T21:10:00.000+08:00

i miss you

nthg much...prettty slack...lols...veri tired...

sorry to make u cry
sorry to make u wry
sorry i broke ur heart
i will nvr do it again
i swear

[[i.lubb.youx]]

Yeoh Yuan
Ai [[05.04.05]]
Shuwei

[[if.the.world.is.to.end.i.wun.mind.]]
[[for.i.died.loving.you]]
[[nthg.will.change.this.love.for.you]]

2005-04-19T22:04:00.000+08:00

oh well...nthg to sae 2dae...
jux veri stressed outx...
pressurized lyk mad...
haix...
damnit...
everything sux...

-u are my only light-
i miss you...
-so dark-
i need you
-i cant see-
light up the dark for mi
-i love you-

2005-04-13T20:26:00.000+08:00

what will come will come and we had to be ready when it did

[wo.ai.ni]

-i will not give u up until u do so-

2005-04-12T20:39:00.000+08:00

WTH...
knn...u told mi 360 sms...nvr tell mi tt includes incoming...how de fuck u xpect mi to noe...kk nvm...my fault k?
den wad...200 minutes free...knn...bill come is 150 mins free...u bluff mi...so i follow...how de fuck u bloody xpect mi to noe...sae i xceed? hu told mi wrong info...still bloody well tell mi 150mins dunnid use all one rite...knn...
oh well...wadeva de fuck...damnit...ankle sprained...haix...

*missingyou*

2005-04-09T19:00:00.000+08:00

today is the best day ever...spent the whole day wif her...so happie...i miz u alortx...takkaire...lub you...

tian tian xiang zhe ni
woaini=D

2005-03-29T20:49:00.000+08:00

2dae sux...sux..sux...fuck it...ordered prawn noodles and rice for lunch 2dae...wtf...i cant taste lorx...lyk sawdust to mi k...no taste...bland...fucking chee bye...wejie made mi angry 2dae...oh well...hu givs a fuck whether i m angry or not...hu givs a fuck whether i die or not...

my fucking left leg tio strained...damn it...2mr still got soccer matches...going to pray i wun be fucking injuried...aniwaes still got social studies haben do...wtf...haix...

is it you?
is it mi?
or is it my life?
i really miss you
or do i?
i really need u
or do i?

i am so lost
i wish i cld giv u a few more yrs of my life
but i cant
i wish i was the one
but its not

i am fed up and confused
i hate life
i hate myself

fuck it

2005-03-28T20:57:00.000+08:00

haix...
so bored...moody...tinking alort 2dae...haix...sick & tired of myself...haix...i dun understand animore bout myself...cant stand it...haix...so lost...crapps...everyday passes but i dun seem to notice it...2mr is lyk another today...boring sux moody...i haf no taste of anything le...locked up in myself...WHAT THE FUCK...haix...mabbe sumthings r meant to be liddat...i become so numb...

what the fuck am i typing siaz...

damnit...

2005-03-28T13:27:00.000+08:00

wahahahaha...now in the skoool computer lab...lols...doing sum tupid fucking thing on digestion...hahaha..kk...logging off...dun want to be caught...

-dead-

2005-03-26T21:18:00.000+08:00

Tong Hua
(Wang Guang Liang)

wo yao bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou
bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju

haix...

2005-03-23T20:58:00.000+08:00

the only positive thing in me is when i am dead

-l0St-

2005-03-22T20:52:00.000+08:00

haix..nthg to sae nthg to post....oh well dere ish smthg...but i will post it up nxt time...oh well...

life sucks rite now...

stress...

screw it
fuck it
damn it

haix...

sorry...

leave mi alone

2005-03-17T22:32:00.000+08:00

painted moi klass 2dae...nthg to sae...nice but well...i prefer black...heheh...pretty boring...go for tuition test saw 99 questions do 14 questions den go...heck care...

*my love*
i miss u so much...u r de mos important person in my life now...if it mean waiting till u r willing to accept mi i will wait...u r worth all the time to mi worth everything to mi...to mi, u admittin tt u love mi ish enough...i only wish we can be 2gether...i love you...

everytime i close my eyes
i see u in my dreams
everytime i tink of you
u r alwaes dere
evertime i look at you
i love u more than ever
evertime i see u smile
i wish forever more
tt one day
i cld be yours
to be there when u nid mi
to be there when u nid a shoulder
to be there when u nid to confide in
but though i hope
all tt i really want
ish for u to be happy and bubbly
and nvr to be upset

i will wait for you
for i believe u will
accept mi one day

i love you

2005-03-14T20:54:00.000+08:00

[woaini]

2005-03-10T21:53:00.000+08:00

sry to all dos playing soccer...admit i was wrong and too rough...nowadays too bothered and agitated...sry...haix...

In this darkness
Surrounded by black
Submerged in cold
Numbed to the core
Frozen to the spine
My heart no longer beats
It hangs there like a stone
Dead
Nothing
In this silent night

I walk alone......

2005-03-08T20:30:00.000+08:00

kk...still a little pissed off 2dae...but yeoh yuan cheered mi up...thnx!!!
haha..

haix...
nvr felt dis lonely b4...

nitex...

Barcelona vs Chelsea latr...

going orh orh 1st...

2005-03-07T20:59:00.000+08:00

wth...not angry wif u jocelyn...pissed off wif myself...sry if i injuried ppl 2dae...reserve my fury shots for match k...sry...dun mean to injury u all...jus feel my world ish turned upside dwn...well not entirely...oh well...this is wad i m...wad i m ish mie...wadeva i stated is not directing at anione...plz do not be offeneded...

kept everything inside
even tho i tried
it all fell apart
-In The End-

ever since i stepped into dis world of love
u haf alwaes been dere for mi
whether
happiness sadness or despair
u will be there
no matter what
the angel who came to my rescue
i tot i wld nvr lose u
nvr did i imagine
u wld step out of dis ring of love
and leave mi alone
in the darkness
feeding on cold sadness and despair

as u passed by mi everyday
i wld turn away
de one i alwaes got along so well
ish now de one who is strangest to mi
how i wanted
to turn back time
turn back
and rewrite history
i cant

now i stand
all alone
in the silence of the nite
swallowed by the black of the darkness
head bowed
no longer feeling the pain
sensing the numbness in my heart
my heart stopped
and cold sets in
my heart
once flowin with love
is now a stone
heavy in my heart
it will nvr be melted again
for it is there to stay

i watch the city in the dark nite
the street lamps blinking
as if crying for mi
are they really crying for mi
or mocking at the state of mi
the state of despair

the rain began pouring
as i sat at the rooftop
my black shirt is soaked
my black pants are heavy
my black heart is sinking ever rapidly
into nothingness
water runs dwn my face
are they tears
or rain?
it cant be tears
de last tears of despair has been shed
blood lost in hurt

i stood writing this
for i m no longer human
i m nothing
nothing left inside
so wad the hell m i waiting for
i threw away my pen
and flung myself forward

into the dead

into where i belonged

2005-03-05T21:57:00.000+08:00

2dae very SIAN...ahahahaha...watched san guo yan yi...met cindy at playground...veri noisy and LOUD...can hear her screaming vaness frm inside of moi hse...

nthg else...

got smthg to type in here...

still under construction tho...

takkaire...

2005-03-03T21:01:00.000+08:00

wun be posting much...veri tired now...going to orh orh soon.. dun xpect post nxt week...packed schedule... monday got pds...tuesday got trn...wed got inter-cca...thurs free...try to squeeze in posting time den...bye bye...

2005-03-01T20:39:00.000+08:00

2dae played catching again...den cindy so noisy...keep pestering me and lionel to bring her hme...hahaha...quite tiring...haix...

2mr got inter-cca soccer tournament...gd luck to ncc(air)...

smthg i anihow created:

this is wad i am
wadever u see
this is who i am
wadever i haf been made to become
u can
hate love detest
i dun care
i haf lost the spark
to urge ppl on
lost the spark
i had once
i haf lost everything
everything tt i used to haf
i wish
i cld turn back time
i wish i cld run the hour hand backwards
i dream
of the times
i spent with u
i dream
i was back with you
i didnt know wad u were thinking
but i noe of one thing
i haf lost u
u are gone forever
and the me i once was
is also gone
i can nvr find myself again
now tt is all left behind
is nothing

nothing...

2005-02-25T12:42:00.000+08:00

Linkin Park-In The End

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end
It doesnt even matter
I haf too far to lose it all
But in the end
It doesnt even matter

jus returned frm camp...fcuk...nvr got to try the flying fox...disappointed...de rest okie...alone at hme now...nthg to do...feeling dwncast again...dere is smthg wrong smthg lacking but i dunch noe wad...smthg's not rite...

nthg else...

-dead-

2005-02-20T10:15:00.000+08:00

2dae ish sunday...

nthg much to sae...

jus...

i lurve u for wad u are
dere is no reason
for my lurve for u
u are who i want
who i need
who i lurve
lurve doesnt need a reason
if i lurve u
and u lurve mi
dere is no reason
i so wish i cld be with u one dae
tho i noe tt my chances r not great
i will still lurve u
the decision lies wif u
i will be waiting for ur answer
i tried so hard
its up to u now
i lurve u

2005-02-14T20:13:00.000+08:00

nthg to sae...quite a normal VAlentine...hope u all haf a nice Valentine...out of sorts lately...sry to izuan for dao-ing u...tot u calling mi fer fun...sry if i offended anyone 2dae....haix...

2dae sux...

*i m okie and everything is fine...so leave mi alone*

2005-02-09T22:56:00.000+08:00

lemme see...2dae a lot of angbaos...den play PS2 soccer and slack around...spent most of moi time tinking and reflecting...
got msg for nobody...
if u wanna do or write or type smthg...plz tink fer other ppl feelings...ur actions and words...willl it cause discomfort and unhappiness...wadeva...i m not de one hurt jus in case u all tink i m...i dunch care bout insults and comments...cuz i noe myself tt i m imperfect and mabbe probably de person on dis earth wif no feelings and hate myself...insults and words hurt mi...but dis kind of hurt is small compared to wad i haf experienced...but other ppl haf feelings too...tink bout dem..and feel how dey will feel...tink in their shoes...i m not defending de person...but i jus tink it is unfair...wadeva...

mabbe u all tink dis ish crap...wadeva

fark it...

haix...

CNY le...tink less bah...

Happy CNY to every1....

2005-02-08T11:54:00.000+08:00

shut de fuck up if u noe wad is gd for u...dere ish nthg happening...so dun make comments and rumours...shut de fuck up...fuck off...

-angry-

-pissed off-

hate dis feeling...
of loneliness...

-ihatemyself-

2005-02-06T20:43:00.000+08:00

todae sux lyk shit...bloody hell...mi sis read bk anihow leave around sae i read throw on de floor...bitch... 2dae damn si bei angry and pissed off... hate my sister man...tolerate her for 4 yrs liao... na bei...fuck it...

damnit...

2005-01-30T10:44:00.000+08:00

dere is smthg wrong wif moi damn com 2dae...shit it...lols...latr got tuition...nthg else lerhx...

-iloveu-

---miss u lotx---

2005-01-27T21:10:00.000+08:00

haix...went to SAFTI...shoot shoot shoot...not going to sae anithing...i didnt deserve to take it...it shuld haf been luoling or benedict one...i hate myself...taking things tt are not mine...crap...things alwaes go my wae when i dun want it to...things alwaes go awry when i dun want it to...wat the fuck man...wads wrong wif mi...why am i liddat...selfish fucking bastard...hate myself...crapp...
nthg else to sae...pretty bad and furious and hellish mood when i got hme...sux man...nthg else...bye.

-do u ever feel lyk breaking dwn-
-do u ever feel out of place-
-lyk sumhow u jus dun belong-
-and no one understands u-

-do u ever wanna run awae-

-dun noe wad is lyk-
-nthg feels all rite-
-dun noe wad its lyk-
-to be lyk mi-

2005-01-25T21:24:00.000+08:00

2dae nthg much...bought badges for de whole part...lols...den did my work...shit haven polish boots...tink i will do it 2mr...

sianz now...miss u so much...

-iwishttucldlovemitoo-

-iwishwecanbegivennachancetobe2gether-

-iloveu-

2005-01-24T21:39:00.000+08:00

2dae IMT sux to de core...i still jux sux at shooting...den 2daew sumthing terrible happened...

one last thing to sae...

-u are as brave as a battle hero when u admit ur mistakes-

***offering $$$ to de person hu took it***

2005-01-19T21:20:00.000+08:00

jus finished moi work...tired lyk mad now...tink i will go to slp...lols...pity tt miss tan is leaving...gotta adapt to tt mr tan...wah liews...wth man...2dae a little happy...went to playground wif jiamin and benedict...wahahaha...long time nvr go play in playground...fun siaz...tink of last time small kids play...den tt benedict...play so much...kick his shoe to de roof of de pavilion...spent yrs to get in dwn...lols...de whole thing up dere goddamn dusty...den go library wif benedict...jiamin went hme(guai kia)...lols...read bout man utd history...den went hme...realised nvr bring bio bk hme to study for 2mr test...fail fer sure...lols...bye....go orh orh liaoz...

-iwillbewaiting-

Linkin Park rocks man...

2005-01-18T15:35:00.000+08:00

sry for not updatin de past few days...tired and buzy...jus got hme frm kfc...going to hantam sumbody 2mr...lols...not quite full yet...haix...nthg to eat in my hse siaz...got 9 articles to do now...so sad....so sian...cannot play FM05...damnit...lols...2mr got marshalling siaz...logging off...

-?amifallinginloveagain?-

~i'll wait for you~

2005-01-14T22:49:00.000+08:00

-sry i cant be perfect-

ihatemyself

got tuition...jus reached hme...

nthg else...

-sry i cant be perfect-

2005-01-13T20:51:00.000+08:00

2dae had intense PT trn wif benedict...lols...den tried to train jocelyn burt failed...her hand now quite soften liao la...lols...gd improvement...damn...my PT sux lyk shit siaz...tink i betta start bucking up...damn it...gotta meet moi own targets for physical fitness...

haha...2dae walked hme got ling gan to write a story...lols...dunno if it will be gd...trying out aniwaes...haix...it is funnie how ppl minds work isnt it...knew it will happen...but yet i leapt...stupid?i dunch tink so...saw it coming...

building walls instead of bridges...so sad...i haf yet to meet sumone hu will tear dwn de wall...i dunch care to tear it dwn...no time and cldnt care enuff...working hard on my work and physical fitness...

-u cant change mi-
-it's jus too late-
-sorry-
-i cant be perfect-

*wad was i tinking?*
---can i really be perfect?---

2005-01-11T18:27:00.000+08:00

sry for not updating...lazy and bit dwn lately...lols...i m alwaes dwn...so hu cares...shit siaz...lols...2dae mi ben and jiamin go see tay hui hui...den weijie came along...den 2ml got pds trn...but after tt all put at hold temporarily...lols...nthg much after tt...went hme...play fm5...haben do moi hmework...quite lazy siaz...lols...signing off...

-i rather be hated for wad i am than to be loved for wad i am not-

takkaire...

2005-01-08T17:36:00.000+08:00

CCA open hse 2dae...de pds preformance was quite okie and had few mistakes and cock-ups...lols...den pretty pissed off 2dae wif sum normal acad. sec 1...bloody hell...dun lyk not interested can shut up...comment so much insult my CCA...cannot stand dem siaz...den ltr went to mac...saw yong shen working...nice hairstyle siaz...den rained...walked in de rain...den de fcuking 853 so damn long...took it wif meiyan and lionel...saw luoling at de bus stop...wahahaha...caught in de rain...went hme in de rain...now got fever...wahahaha....so fun...i love de rain man...

listening to linkin park now...trying to get mi mind off things...hope dos hu were at mac went back hme 'safely' frm de rain...lols...haix...been dwncast lately...cld be owrk but i suspect otherwise...shuldnt tink bout dis animore...

suspect lately got ppl backstabbing mi...doesnt matter...u laugh at mi, insult mi, backstab mi when i treat u as fwens...its is okie...=)

-i wld rather be hated for wad i am to be loved for wad i am not-
-people hu r lonely build walls instead of bridges-

mabbe i am building walls...so wad...mi views mi comments matters nthg in dis world...lols...anti-social bastard...

takkaire...

*jiamin--->will try to get u back in pds okie?try not to tink...let it go...takkaire*

2005-01-06T21:03:00.000+08:00

-If u dun lyk it, change it. If u cant change it, change ur attitude. Dont complain-

-Dare to dream big. Even u do not succeed, u will be near it-

-People who are lonely build walls instead of bridges-

-If u want to wait, remember, the world and time dont wait for you-

-Every dead end is the time to go round-

-Never give up. Giving up is giving up on yourself-

-If u dont want to live, live for others-

-If u can see and dream it, you can do it-

-Dont sae the world turn its back on yours, u turn yours on its-

-Try not. Do or dont. There is no try-

sum of the quotes tt helped and pushed mi on...lols...takkaire guys...

2005-01-04T20:36:00.000+08:00

nthg to sae...quite okie 2dae...

-ihateyou-

logging off...

2005-01-02T18:28:00.000+08:00

pretty sian dae...lols...2ml going back to skool...yeah man...looking forward to it...lols...looking 4ward to a new chapter of moi life...going to be myself...dunch care wadeva others sae...

-amifallinginloveagainz?-

lols...dunch tink so much...let nature and fate take mi where i wam supposed to go...

gd luck to all u you...

wheeeees....

2005-01-01T01:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
2005 has started!
my new life starts NOW...
Yeah man...
2004 behind...
past 4gotton...

New Year resolutions:
6 pack
20 pull-ups
A1 fer all subjects
Do well in PDS

My new life STARTS!!!
lols...
takkaire...

2004-12-31T23:25:00.000+08:00

nthg to do so i updatex againz...lols...
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Thanks to Brandon...hu help mi xiang tong...lols thanks xiao terror...
Thanks to Cheryl Phua...hu supported mi all dis while and ish a great fwen...
Thanks to Mr Tan...hu sent mi de e-card...
Thanks to Luoling...for being fwens wib mi...lols...thanks shortie...jkjk
All of u 4 made moi New Year Eve complete...
Luv all of u manx...
crying siaz...
nvr felt so happie b4...

Happy New Year!

2004-12-31T23:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

45minutes left...

new year, new life, new resolutions...

takkaire every1...

feeling elated...lols...new year to gib mi chance to start afresh...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2004-12-31T09:38:00.000+08:00

sianz...

lost it all
nthg last 4eva
sry i cant be perfect
now is jus too late
and we cant go back
sry i cant be perfect
-Perfect-[Simple Plan]

where are u
and i'm so sry
i cannot slp
i cannot dream 2nite
i nid sumbody and alwaes
this sick strange darkness
cums creeping on mi so haunting everytime
and as i stared i counted
webs and all de spiders
catching things and eating their insides
like indecision to call u
and hear ur voice of treason
will u cum hme and stop dis pain 2nite
stop dis pain 2nite
-I Miss You-[Blink 182]

let's talk dis over
is not lyk tt we r dead
was it sumthing i did
or was it sumthing u said
dun leave mi hanging
in a city so dead
held up so high on such a breakable thread
u were all de things i tot i knew
and i tot we could be
u were everything everything tt i wanted
we were meant to be supposed to be
but we lost it
all de memories
so close to mi jus fade awae
all dis time u were pretending
so much for mi happy ending
so much for my happy ending
-My Happy Ending-[Avril Lavigne]

sum of moi favourite songs...
fuck...

[dere's nthg but de rain]
[i'm trying to figure out dis life]

-wad am i thinking?-
[nthg is going rite]
[everything's a mess]
[no one lyks to be alone]

i found out a reason for mi
to change hu i used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you
i'm sorry tt i hurt u
its sumthing i mus live wif everydae
and all the pain i put u thru
i wish i could take it all awae
and be the one hu catches all ur tears
-The Reason-[Hoobastank]

wad am i doing typing all dis crap?
fuck...

2004-12-30T21:47:00.000+08:00

lols...long time nvr update...so sry...not in de mood...pretty sad and dwn recently...aniwaes...tink i am slowly letting go...moving on wif moi life and struggling on myself...shit...back to de same old shit...lols...miss u guys out dere...pds performance in a week and 1dae...lols...takkaire...

*doiluvu?*

-signing off-

2004-12-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

lost inside moi...
haix...
lost it all...
cant change mi...
nthg last 4eva...
its jus too late...
to change...
to go back in time...
offended to mani ppl...
shuld i end it all?
im sry...
i cant be perfect...
not fit to be a leader...
not perfect enuff...
i will jus be happy with death...
dreams...
hopes...
wad are they???
a thing of the past...
no longer exist in moi world...
dead ends...
moi time is up???

*wads wrong--->cheer up keas...u got a lot of things ahead of u...dun follow moi footsteps...take care...gd fwens alwaes...*

2004-12-24T22:57:00.000+08:00

1hr more to a fucked up christmas yet againz...jus finished moi tuition...tired...but awake...read sum1 blog...well...doesnt matter animore...fer i m born to be hated...

sumtimes i really wonder...moi life on earth...is it a mistake???mabbe i shuld gib it to sum1 else as a christmas present...i m not special...i m a piece of shit...a wrong person born in de wrong world...sumhow i tink de world will be a betta place w/o mi...

im a mistake...a shit...a dirt...a jinx...wrongly constructed...

wads dere left to fight in moi life?

2004-12-24T13:33:00.000+08:00

at hme...latr got tuition..SIAN...2ml is christmas...fuck...every year i nvr haf an enjoyable and gd xmas...rather not haf xmas...damn it...haix...merry christmas to all of u all out dere aniwaes...haf an enjoyable christmas...takkaire...

*Santa--->take mi awae and bring mi sum1 i belong...tt is onli moi wish...*

struggling on............................

2004-12-22T20:31:00.000+08:00

back frm de CALC camp...sian lyk mad...tekan lyk mad..but i quite lyk it larhhx...lols...got the OCA(outstanding cadet award)...lol...wahaha...congrats to yijun fer getting the OOCA(overall outstanding award)...lol...

nthg to sae fer now...2dae eat mac...nice manz...threee daes no gd food to eat...three daes nvr bathe...lol...finalli...

got smthg...burt dun wan to sae now...
haix...

2004-12-18T21:42:00.000+08:00

woke up at 7 todaes...slp 3 hrs onli...funnie thing is i got a lot of energy...haix...nthg to update...CAMP IN 2 DAYS!!!wootx!!!so excited...madz...onli mi and benedict lookin ferward to PT...will blog latr...

2004-12-18T02:40:00.000+08:00

wad am i doin here...shuld be aslp...but...haix...cant...did a poem on my feelings and tots of my life and my ex-s so far(jus lyk mingfeng)...not meant to make anione angry horx...

post it up another time...goin to study moi sec 3 bks...take care...

[lOSt]

2004-12-17T18:09:00.000+08:00

fcuk it...got tuition latr...not eating dinner...save $$$...football manager 5...nthg much...went fer de civil defense course...full-marks...yeah...but haben get moi badge...damnit...

*i dun mind u breaking moi apart...i am jus happy being ur fwens...i wun hate u...gd luck fer ur yrs ahead...de best of luck...*

*cheryl* tell mi wad xmas present u want...will buy one fer u...for supporting mi when i nid it...gd fwens alwaes!!!

2004-12-15T17:41:00.000+08:00

Blink 182
I Miss You

Where are you

And I am so sorry

I cannot sleep

I cannot dream tonight

I need somebody and always

This sick strange darkness

Comes creeping on me so haunting every time

And as I stared I counted

Webs and all the spiders

Catching things and eating their insides

Like indecision to call you

And hear your voice of treason

Will you come home and stop this pain tonight

Stop this pain tonight

2004-12-14T03:03:00.000+08:00

cant slp...

-aloneinthedark-

2004-12-13T22:42:00.000+08:00

2dae is nthg...sucky...still thinking of her sumtimes...fed up wif my mum 2dae...went cycling...fell dwn...cycled to de deserted playground...sat dere fer hrs...thinking bout her...my life...shit mi...y am i still doing dis...fcuk...wanna break awae and nvr turn back...offending ppl wherever i go whenever i sae...i hate dis...screw it...damnit...

*Wounds so deep dey nvr show*
*Dey nvr go awae*

*Sumtimes i tink of letting go*
*And nvr looking back*

-icantfeelanimore-

-f-c-u-k-

ihatemyself

2004-12-12T21:17:00.000+08:00

BLINK 182
I Miss You
Where are you
And I am so sorry
I cannot sleep
I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on me so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
The webs and all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
My indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Dun waste ur time on mi
You are already a voice inside my head

Dun waste ur time on mi
You are already a voice inside my head

Dun waste ur time on mi
You are already a voice inside my head

2004-12-11T22:31:00.000+08:00

so pissed off 2dae...dunnoe y...mabbe de weather...mabbe is moi...haix...nvm...heard a number of love songs 2dae...damnit...y is it so difficult to let go...i am halfwae thru...now i am not moving on fast enuff...sum1 tell mi y...falling in love is easy but maintaining a relationship is difficult...

signing off

-alone in the[dark]-

2004-12-10T10:47:00.000+08:00

cousin back frm australia at 12mn...de plane mus haf met wif air turbulence fer de damn arrival time was postphoned 3 times to 12mn...woke up at 7am todae...did nthg much...still haf maths to do...set a few targets and aims fer miself...

physical--->25 pull-up,6 pack
academic--->get A1 in E and A maths and improve on my English

haix...basically a typical and boring holidae i can see...

*wish i knew wad dis means...so confused now...i feel smthg fer u...but yet i still thinkin bout de past...*

-alone in the dark-

2004-12-09T17:44:00.000+08:00

did maths...still in shock after seeing sumthing i shuldnt yesterdae...couldnt slp...dreamt bout things chasing and haunting mi...had nitemares...ran all de wae hme frm de bus-stop...

logging off...

-turningintodeadends-

2004-12-03T17:38:00.000+08:00

built my blog frm scratch after deleting it...depends on u wanna add not...dun act i wun mind...bought Linkin Park Jay Z album 2dae...anione wanna burn tell mi...

signing off...

...

[borntobehated]

2004-12-03T13:48:00.000+08:00

BLINK 182
I Miss You

Where are you

And I am so sorry

I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight

I need somebody and always

This sick strange darkness

Comes creeping on me so haunting every time

And as I stared I counted

The webs and all the spiders

Catching things and eating their insides

My indecision to call you

And hear your voice of treason

Will you come home and stop this pain tonight

Stop this pain tonight